(...) writes:
With my crazy, hectic life I find myself getting up in the middle of
the night...on the verge of an anxiety attack...worrying about
anything and everything...when that happens, I start praying...let
go and let God..."Lord, I am turning my fears, my worries, my
problems over to you.
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V:
If I live life in a crazy, hectic and sick way, that is what I get ... craziness and sickness. I also get the added bonus of destroying my life through my addictions...all eight of them!
We all answer to natural law and just praying to God to get a hall pass to relieve us from paying the price of sick living due to our own actions will not give us peace. Yes, it can distract us from life, as all mind concentrations do and as I wrote about in "Paying Homage to Charles Ponzi." But just paying 'lip service' to right living is only a band-aid approach on a cancer that keeps growing.
Change is internal. It seems that many of us get stuck with looking for hope of change someplace else other than within us. All change is ultimately internal in nature, but we have hopes that someone else will do it for us, rather than we doing it ourselves. Even many religious practitioners feel that any good change in their lives will come from the outside -- as a gift from God / gods without much effort from ones own self to change.
Now, some people talk of enlightenment or miracles happening, but even these areas of great change still must be ultimately rooted inside the person, as no one can beat them over the head with them and force the change upon the individual. One thing to be mindful of is that once we do change life will still not be perfect. As the old Buddhist saying goes: Before enlightenment you chop wood and carry water ~ After enlightenment you chop wood and carry water. So, develop all the positive changes you can in your life, but be sure to look at such changes in proportion and not as some magic bullet to nirvana. True happiness and serenity is composed of many qualities and not just one. I discuss this in an earlier post called "The Definition of a Miracle is the Suspension of Natural Law"
I was on a forum for atheists where they claimed that atheists answer to no Gods or gods. I can positively say that every atheist serves two Gods. And in reality, these Gods require worship from all humans whether they be atheists or theists. The 'God of Inner Peace' is the first God. Without serving this God of Inner Peace man will turn to self destruction and suicide. The other God is that of the 'God of Nature' which makes itself evident with it natural laws or commandments. No matter how defiant the atheist or theist is...we will ALL bow to the God of Nature sooner or later.
Speaking of nature, it is also good to keep in touch with the lesser cousin of the God of Nature which is seeking peace with our own nature through right actions. Yes, learning to accept the nature of all things is an important part of the equation for living a life at peace, but there is a missing link that needs to be added to this equation. The missing link is marrying authenticity with rightness.
The formula for success is: Authentic Nature + Right Actions = Peace
The formula for failure is: Authentic Nature + Wrong Actions = Destruction
There are many 'natures' in our life to be mindful of - we have our own nature, the nature other persons we have contact with, as well as the 'nature' of nature itself. But, just becoming a 'blissninny' and blindly accepting the various natures will not give us peace. To apply this tool rightly, we need to adopt a life of proportionality, balance and wisdom. How do we learn to live a more balanced life? By using rational thought patterns and by putting reason before passion. Then we can view our actions as balanced or not, for without rational thought we have nothing to weigh in our quest for balance.
Knowing what is true and developing wisdom to be at peace are two very important qualities for the confused spiritual practitioner to develop. With respect to myself, I try to balance wisdom with that of peace perception. For whether something is a truth or not, it still has to pass the peace test. There are many things that are true and good in life, but they will still end up destroying my peace if I let them. Usually the dividing line for such 'good today ~ bad tomorrow' questions are rooted in the area of balance and proportionality.
If you don't know what I am talking about, then I will give you this example. we need water to drink and air to breath in order to live. But, even though water and air are life sustaining, too much water and too much air will become life destroying...proportionality and balance divides life from death. I always ask if a person, place, thing or activity promotes my peace or destroys my peace? When I practice compassion for others as my Buddhist practice recommends, I ask this same question of peace promotion or peace destruction of others. I look deeply to see what is destroying the other persons peace the best I am able to.
There are 3 main components to rational thinking.
1 - Rationality requires reflection.
2- Rationality is the ability to anticipate consequences.
3 - Rationality requires adherence to certain standards.
Whatever the area of mind abuse - a sick mind that is constantly busy cannot heal itself without rest. Nor can that mind think rationally when it is sick. Meditation on nothingness (zazen) helps quiet a "sticky brain" that seems to hold onto everything. I can get positive results with just 15 to 20 minutes a day sitting meditation time. It helps if I sit at regular time. I meditate on nothingness, although some meditate on an object If you can get to a half hour meditation time, that is great. Do not confuse zazen with sleep. Having a brain awake and empty if far different from a brain asleep and still producing thoughts and dreams. It just takes time and practice. Morning works better for me than mid day...there are less things distracting me earlier in the day usually.
The important point is to just do it and do it regularly and do not make demands on your meditation practice or have expectations. Balance is very important in life. We need some spiritual practice and some physical as well. We sometimes forget we are spiritual beings residing in physical bodies living in physical world and need effort in both areas.
There are many other ways to use meditation besides traditional sitting meditation. There is also working mediation and walking mediation practices. If you do yoga, you can try combining meditation with your Yoga practice. Mindfulness meditation all starts with being aware of ones breath. I also make use of meditation tools such as a meditation timer. One type is a $10 CD that sounds a gong after a preset time. The other one is an expensive $100 electric gong timer that can also be used as an alarm clock or Yoga timer.
Sometimes I might use the 15 minute preset time just to get into a state conducive to meditation and when the gong goes off keep sitting until I feel like getting up naturally. These are usually the best sessions for me, although they require a person to have some freedom of time. Seldom can I sit for longer than 30 to 35 minutes at a session due to time and my ability. But, don't get caught up in ego and try to mediate ad infinitum thinking the longer the better. One out of balance practitioner I knew bragged how he could meditate the main away from his rotting teeth with long hours of meditation. In his case too much sitting and too little oral hygiene -- stay balanced.
Any sort of timer is fine except one that jars you out of meditation in an abusive and agitating manner. A timer frees one's mind from worrying about such things. This should also apply to our alarm clocks in the morning. I use a CD clock that plays birds singing. Start your day off in peace. If you need further advice, there are many good books, videos or tapes on meditating from your local library that can help. Also many internet resources.
Zazen - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Zen Mountain Monastery: Zen Meditation Instructions
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