nanners86

I had this really wierd dream that I was laying in bed and whomever was next to me was saying "Hail Mary" and I freaked out and asked them what the hell they were doing. Then I found myself saying "Hail Mary" and I didn't know why and I couldn't stop. What do you guys think this means if anything?

}SoC{Sumguy

it could mean that you are afraid of Christianity...

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and you know that there's a place
in the sun, for all that you've done.
For you and your children.
You always wanted to beleive.
Just ask and you'll receive,
beyond your wildest dreams.
And you already know how this will end...."

nanners86

Well, what is wierd is that I was a catholic before becomming agnostic. I dunno, not sure what it means, if anything.

pepper

Were you really Catholic? Or were you just "raised" Catholic? Did you go through the motions because that's what you knew? Or because that's what you believed?

I am in NO WAY asking this in a negative fashion. I am simply wondering what changed your beliefs.

nanners86

I was raised protestant and when I was 16 I became agnostic. I met my ex husband and he was cathloic and I was convenced by him and others that I was going thru a phase (and being young and impressionable I agreed) I became cathloic because I thought they really focused on Jesus and that was who I was to worship, but I never could "feel" anything and whatever I did I could explain with science, it just never made much logical sense to me. I remembered a day when I was a little girl telling my mom that I didn't want to go to church, that I didn't believe, and she was really upset with me. I think I have always had my doubts but I allowed other people to sway me into their beliefs. I then sat down one day and thought about what it was that I knew to be true and I realized I just wasn't real sure if there was a surpreme being and that is a definition of an agnostic. But I was cathloic on by choice, I was not raised catholic.

nanners86

Pepper, if that doesn't answer your question just send me a message, I am not sure if I was very clear in my explination.

dysfunctional

I think you are thinking too much of what people are going say about you being agnostic, stop thinking and be what you are, trust me you will feel lot better.

nanners86

Perhaps I am giving it too much thought.

dysfunctional

I am a true believer of "I am what I am and no one has right to judge me", that is why i try not to judge anyone either

LilOne1989

I totally agree with dysfunctional. You have said on several of your post that you are preoccupied more or less with what your family, friends, etc., think about your choice and that their opinions do bother you at times. It sounds like you are having a hard time choosing who you want to please yourself or them. If you choice yourself then you know you will have difficulties with them probably forever or until the give up and if you choice them you may never be happy cause you will be doing things for them regardless of the fact that what is in your heart might be different.