Agnostix

Hi, I've always believed myself to be a Christian but thinking about it rationally I've not really been one. I've believed in the Christian God from a young age but it wasn't until a few years ago that I started practising the religion properly.

Well after success and failure (mainly failure) I have come to the conclusion that I'm probably an agnostic since I doubt God's existence all the time and I get extremely disheartened when I can't argue my case for Christianity with my atheist friends.

It's not until the last few days that I've wondered if I really am a Christian. I mean I disagree with some Christian doctrine and I often feel like I pray out of habit rather than a genuine belief that my prayers will be answered.

I have had religious experiences, as I'm sure many others have, but in the back of my mind I'm always thinking that scientists will one day tell me that it's just certain electrical activity in a certain part of my brain making me feel that way. But at the same time this doesn't mean that God does not influence it.

I guess the last paragraph sums up the reason why I'm here. I hope to come closer to reaching a personal conclusion on the subject.