granma

im grow from russia live here sory i my english please help

am i live life alone to dead?

im have question right or wrong of my sex, im born look in my face like man in my body im have 2 hole inside pant and 1 penis very small i have the breast tissue on top. im like girls but for all my life the boys be with me. i grewed up for cathloic dad hes make god in life to be everything. when hes died 5 year he says to think about god for everything or you go to hell. when i grow up i believe god for my dad when his died i think for god and feel wrong i feel bad. when his died i read the bible everyday looking for truth i can not find truth about my sex, the bible say you can not be gay man for man woman for woman. i dont know what i am man or woman i have 2. what am i? who can i like man or woman? is there other people who is sex like me, they are the only one i can like?

i need help for you, im dont know where to go. i am grow up to believe god is everything but there is no sense for why i am sex this why, i am born wrong body things. is there something in the bible talks about people like me i cant find. please help me i dont want to go to hell for be born like this i cant help it

is hurt me so much im grow up for god and now i feel god is no with me, am i bad ally to go away from him to be for some god or belief? is there welcome me in heaven?

for im born like this im go to hell, i think about this things and i want to die im have no where on earth no where in death, please help me

we all die we think what belief in life is good for us, you see i am not man or woman is mean i can not be ally with god BECAUSE i am born this way, i did not choose to leave god but he has no written thing about people like me in his book. your think about it, your belief is what your chose to have for your self and life

people i see say all life "god chose you" but you know what hes not chose you, your chose what you want

im have man parts if i like man i am gay i go to hell. i have woman part if i like woman i go to hell. if i meet someone like me is like gay too? help me please i dont know what to do is hard for me

granpa

I'm male, her husband and regardless of her "difficulties" I am very satisfied together. But these problems do effect our relationship because she spends a great deal of time in guilt, often pushing me away for days through which we won't exchange a single sentence. She will feel as a "sinner" and that she is degrading the memory of her father... I am not religious myself, I do have some interest in scientology but not in a religious manner so I do not know what to say at those times. Her father looms large in our lives, she has him in 3 urns across our home. He was a very strict Christian and my wife feels as if she "cannot" be a christian though she wishes to be because life had made her so she is a sinner regardless of how she tries to manage.

Her difficulties also effect our sex life badly. We might have sex every few months when she feels capable and even then she will usually abruptly end it if I stimulate a part of her that she feels is not part of her gender which will create guilt. We tried phone sex eventhough we live in the same house as a replacement but it didn't work either.

I go to Church and prayer with her despite the fact that I am not religious. I myself have my own difficulties as I have lost one of my legs in the Kosovo war though I do manage quite well making a living as a cable guy and am not restricted to a wheelchair. We came on here so she could perhaps explore her faith and understand it better, I hope she finds some answers that could help us.

debdodd

granma .... you have my sympathies .... you are not alone in your feelings ... many people feel the same way .... it takes time.

I had a little difficulty following your train of thought on occasion but think this is a place to begin healing and reconciliation with yourself, your father and religion.

Take your time and take little steps towards understanding .... time is a great healer.

Being happy is not dependent on what sex you are. In certain countries and religions it does make it a little more difficult but not impossible to be happy.

You are also right about your God, he may give you life but it is up to you which path you choose to live.

I'm not sure what all this says or means but I think I might get a general idea. I have several Friends, in fact my best friend, who was born a man but was always a woman on the inside. Which do you feel more like ... a man or a woman? If it's true there is a God and he makes no mistakes then you have nothing to worry about ... God made you as you are .... how could he have made a mistake? You have so much inter turmoil going on and it is sad. I hope you can find a gender that makes you happy and be at peace with yourself. You need to concentrate more on the living than on the deceased. Your father is gone but you are still here and very much alive.

__________________
"Ubi dubium ibi libertas."

"We are all lone souls. It pays to know humility, lest the delusion of control, of mastery, overwhelms. And indeed, we seem a species prone to that delusion, again and ever again ....."

granma

hi deb thanks for your telling me them. is hard for me i am thinking today and for the turth is there is no explaination for this. there is so little explination for things in this world for people and we can not understand so we find something to help us when is not true just for give us peace of head and then have problems is so stupid, is just make everyone believe you have to fit some where in this world and be dependence on eachother as your have power as a number, im not care for it anymore, i dont care this is only real because you make it real im not follow any more im make my own world, there is more room in this world for corruption of mind, when your belonging this is your corrupt

debdodd

didn't really follow all of that line of thought but ...... I hope you find inner peace and self acceptance .... good luck.

__________________
"Ubi dubium ibi libertas."

"We are all lone souls. It pays to know humility, lest the delusion of control, of mastery, overwhelms. And indeed, we seem a species prone to that delusion, again and ever again ....."