It's always pleasant to see someone announce they are a seeker of truth as opposed to someone who labels themselves religious, atheist, or dare I say agnostic. Cut through the BS and get to the heart of matters is what I say. Anyways, Jim, if you want some help seeing how far the rabbit hole goes I suggest reading this E-Book called Poison for the Heart. It was written by Kevin Solway who's work had a large influence, and still does to this day, on my spiritual development. Here's the URL,
http://www.theabsolute.net/minefield/poison.html