Originally Posted by shadowind

it converts my time and actions to an abstract value that i feel isn't representative of the value of me, it seems to turn me to an object for another objects control. my value is controlled by supply and demand and what not, i am no different then a commodity, and daily i sell myself, hopefully one day i'll be doing something more enjoyable, also my toys i wish for are things that should improve upon my condition of life and skills/abilitys. i think part of it is becuse a job isn't in accordance with my will, that my knees are forced to bend into a package of work ethnic and work appearance with a smile and a yes madam and a time frame. i'm not my own boss, thats it. i really want to start my own busness, hopefully i'll do that soon, and i got to go to work, argh more later perhaps.