that's one of the best things about the anonymity of the Internet ... you can say things that you cannot say face to face with anyone else.
You might be at a juxtaposition in life and find a path that suits you ... there are certainly some very bright people on this forum .... who often sound like they have their sh*t together perhaps you will find some wisdom in their words or solace for you soul.
You haven't had the easiest road in life so far ... better than some ... worse than others .... you can let that hold you back or you can use it to make you stronger. It's always about choices. How we chose to deal with the obstacles that life throws our way ... some of us find our way through the maze with help from friends ... be they next door or in cyberspace.
I like to believe that I have found cyberfriends on this forum and through them I have grown. They hopefully know who they are ... love you guys
(at times , wanna throttle a couple of you
) Deb