Hello group,
I am a 43 year old woman in east Tx. I have done alot of soul searching trying to figure out my beliefs. I will put it in a nutshell the best I can. Please help me with this if you can. I want to know if I am wierd or if others are like me.
Ok... I traditionally am Christian based but have questioned it alot lately. I dont know if I am agnostic or what. I do believe there is an afterlife. I do believe there is the existence of forces of good and evil. I believe that the bible has alot of contradiction and don't understand how this book which was written by human beings and translated from other languages can be completely accurate. I do believe that some spirits linger earthbound for some reason. I do believe that somehow people pay in the long run somewhere for their wrong doings and evilness. I think it comes back on you in terms of misfortune sometimes. I do not believe that any man on the face of this earth has the right or the knowledge to tell me who god is, what he wants me to do, how he wants me to live and that I will go to hell if I do not comply. I do not understand a god that punishes people for not believing the christian way especially if they were raised from childhood with different beliefs. And I don't understand a god that forces us to love him out of fear. I am fed up with judgement which is freely given out by "christians". They seem to believe they have the right to foresee or send you to hell. They are convinced they have ALL the answers and even fight amongst themselves because of different denominations.
Beyond the facts I believe in forces of good and evil and an afterlife of some sort, I do not know what else I do believe. Part of me has the fear that god will strike me into hell for having thoughts about this and thinking on my own.
Please write me... anyone.. at
ladybug75901@yahoo.com
Thanks for listening,
spiritual quest