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As I am told, I am nothing. I have a room and a car and I go to school at ASU. I have friends but I am told by them that I need more. I am not sure what more that I need. I have been pretty reliable to my professors but I have found that I have no real response from them. I talk to them but they are distant, as if I am not really in their class or this is just a singular way to ignore a student with good ideas by trying to use fancy vernacular or a way to confuse a willing student who wants to learn, not be told to hit the books in utter defeat. I am told that I was made as a project by a corporation called the Limited, Inc. I was given genetic enhancement through the government in order to speak before and during birth. I was told that I was secret and that I did not exist. I was told that I have no life and that I have no future other than what I make. I have a job and I go to school. There, I make of it that I have just a little further to go and I am being tossed aside like never before. I was used by the government to stop the Cold War. I succeeded. I was told that I wasn’t worth the soil that I walked on because no one gets a phone call with people on acid standing over ICBM’s. That never happened. I was told that I don’t have a chance in hell because my parents had to see to it that this struggle never got out. I cut off my parents. I don’t even receive e-mails from them. I am being silently swept under the carpet and I have no chance to make any effort to learn and get “A’s” since I was a sophomore in college. I have been hidden away and told that I am nothing. I am the future CEO of Limited Inc. and even that is hidden from me. I have been told that I am nothing and that I have no purpose. I will tell you what I want. I want to graduate from ASU, anonymously, as an electrical engineer. I had hoped to work for Boeing electronics sitting in a cubicle and not telling anyone that have two jobs. I am an engineer, not a shirt manufacturer. I have wanted to be an engineer all my life. I have no less than months left in school and I am going to fail because I study too much (The paradox). I read the books but I get no help. I go to office hours but homework is cheap in the manner of delineation of scoring for final grade. The tests seem as if I am being told this is easy but you will never, ever be able to get this from us. You are worthless for being born. I know that the very next solution would be to go to the army and just go to war. Quit and join the military that has borrowed you to win the Cold War. I feel as if I am not free because Christianity and Judaism and Islam are out to watch me sit in a fox hole. Religion does not want me to assume that I have the right to choose my future. Religion is out to make sure that there is a default in order to make sure that freedom is not chosen it is taken from you. Religion is only there to make sure that its pledge that sex is meant to be free is taken from everyone. Religion wants to make sure that its pledge to make sure that God is taken from everyone and that we are to assume that God only belongs to the preacher, the priest, the rabbi, the church leaders that tell you what to believe when they want you to believe it. I am an Agnostic because of the shifty nature of the church. There is no church on the face of the earth when presented with the answer turns opposite and becomes a loser for the truth about humans.

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Thank you, I am impressed that you are forgiving enough to approach this line of reasoning.