hey, if I throw away my literature, does that make me a pagan? If I make a question that entices your comparison ability does that make me an athiest? How much closer to the justification of establishment does it make to will a person to be able to get a message? What is it that makes a message? What will messages that are passed be so quiet that even a trained ear will have to assume they know what is going on . What is being autonomic do to a person?
Did you know that my grandfather, his name is John McClain Gamble is a meth and crack user since 1922? Long befor I was born, he was doing this just when you think that all of my world is ok, he can't seem to get it that trust in people is a good idea and his addiction takes over. My grandmother, Catherine Gamble is addicted to methamphetamine and she does LSD-25 to get over the freebasing that my grandfather does. Do you know what it is like having two drug addicted grandparents? Yet they live in a rich neighborhood and drive lease cars and fly around the country. How screwed up is that, let me explain. It has been 27 years and I have been told, when I was in highschool that they were drug addicted. I live with that hanging over my head. A winner, going to war in the Pacific, addicted to drugs. This is why I question the faith. What makes a winner, whose relatives went to the first world war, win there too, do so many drugs? He's pushing 87, man......
They are avid church goers, and they are really truly righteous people. This is what gets me floored. They expect respect but when it is given to them, they get angry and whine at me about how I pick up the newspaper, or how Arabs are "taking over," or about how wrong I am about politics, or how much I have left of school. I am sick of this balonga.
I now look as if I am definately screwed up in the head for explaining away the establishment this way. If I am too much to handle now, administrator, I wish to be either messaged or lambasted or administered guilt, I don't know what. I think that in my heart I believe that everything I said was in effort to try to leave the path wide open for people to reason with each other. I hope that I questioned everything. The fear that I have.....